Keri-lee Griffiths

Recovering Human Being

  • The Rickety Old Boat Is Sinking!

    July 10, 2020 by

    I wouldn’t call myself a hoarder. At least, not in the clinical sense or in a way that would get me cast on some “reality” show. When you walk into my place, you won’t find mountains of boxes, old newspapers, or a maze of dead and useless artifacts. You won’t hear distant sounds of gnawing… Read more

  • Chasing The Happy Hit

    July 7, 2020 by

    “Be happy for this moment. This moment is your life.” – Omar Khayyam So, I did something this weekend that I haven’t done in months. The last time I did it was way back in February. I think it was the last weekend in February? That’s, what, five months of not doing it? I can’t… Read more

  • Panic, Patriotism, and Purple Penguins

    July 3, 2020 by

    I woke up this morning in a panic. One minute I was dead to the world. The next minute I bolted out of bed as if my sheets were molten lava. I stood there muttering, “Oh crap,” over and over again. My eyes blinking wildly. Focus. Focus. Is that the time? Oh crap! I ran… Read more

  • Shut up! I love you.

    June 30, 2020 by

    “We must find time to stop and thank the people who make a difference in our lives.” ― John F. Kennedy Yesterday marked the thirteenth anniversary of my kidney transplant. Thirteen years. I’m actually shocked. It’s hard to believe so much time has passed. I know it’s a cliché, but where did the time go? It… Read more

  • A Genuine Menace

    June 26, 2020 by

    I should’ve just gone back to bed. I should’ve called it a day. Hidden somewhere safe. Zipped myself up in a bubble suit, and rolled into a padded broom closet. I know it’s usually a room but, in a pinch, the minimalistic solution will work just fine. Mm, yeah let’s go with a closet with… Read more

  • Yeah, You Can Milk A Beaver!

    June 22, 2020 by

    “Amateurs sit and wait for inspiration, the rest of us just get up and go to work.”– Stephen King I’ve been trying to write this post for a couple of hours now and all I have are a whole lot of words on a page. They aren’t horrible words. They make sense and are, for… Read more

  • Bring Back The Clowns

    June 19, 2020 by

    Clowns. They aren’t that bad, are they? I mean, if they’re hiding in a sewer and offering kids red balloons then, okay, that’s kinda creepy. Is that how that movie went? Yeah, I never saw it and I never read the book. I’m not a fan of scary stuff. Too many real-world scary stuff. I… Read more

  • When I Look In A Mirror

    June 15, 2020 by

    “I am not my body. My body is nothing without me.”  ― Tom Stoppard, Rock ‘n’ Roll There are times, when I look at myself in the mirror, that I don’t know who I’m looking at. I bite my lip, and the stranger in the mirror bites hers. I close one eye, and she winks… Read more

  • So I Became The Smoke

    June 12, 2020 by

    Let’s just make a few adjustments, shall we? We need to cover the dark circles under those eyes and add some colour to those cheeks. There, that’s a little bit better. Now the hair, the clothes, and…No, no slouching. Stand up straight. You look like a question mark! Who’s going to believe anything you say,… Read more

  • A Long A Silver Wire

    June 8, 2020 by

    “Remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted.” ― Sylvia Plath My life has been put on hold for a few months now as I’m sure, has yours. The global pandemic has been a real monster… Read more

  • But I’ve Never Even Changed A Diaper!

    June 5, 2020 by

    Wanna hear a joke? Me too! What a coincidence. Funny how things work out when you write the script. I can’t tell you how much I need a good laugh. It needs to be a deep, from the toes, full-body, laugh until I cry kind of thing. When I laugh too hard my ears pop.… Read more

  • It’s Time To Be Uncomfortable!

    June 1, 2020 by

    “We must always take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented. The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference.” — Elie Wiesel Today, I’m keeping this short because, honestly, I’m at a loss. So much pain and sorrow. So many people standing with their hands up… Read more

  • The Power and Limitations of Prayer

    May 29, 2020 by

    I believe in the power of prayer. Thought I should just get that out before I go on to contradict myself or stir up a nest of angry fire ants. Made that mistake once and, believe me, there are someplace you just don’t want ants to bite. Sensitive places. So…So sensitive. But I digress! Prayer… Read more

  • A Werewolf On An Open Road?

    May 26, 2020 by

    “In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.” – Robert Frost It’s a clear night and the stars shine brightly. The air is warm, almost too warm for this time of year, but no one’s complaining. Well, no one else is awake right now and the silence is perfection.… Read more

  • Please, Don’t Pity Me

    May 22, 2020 by

    Dread crawls up my spine like a snake wrapping itself around a tree branch. It clings to my bones. I feel its muscles flex as it holds on for dear life. It lifts its head, its tongue laps up the air, and it waits. There’s a strong breeze. It’s bitter but sweet. There’s a ripple… Read more

  • The Storytellers Lies

    May 18, 2020 by

    “I could no longer discern what was real and what was fake. Everything, including the present, seemed to be both too much and nothing at all.” ― Clemantine Wamariya, The Girl Who Smiled Beads: A Story of War and What Comes After I enjoy a good conspiracy theory but it better be well thought out. If… Read more

  • Can You Zip That Up, Please?

    May 15, 2020 by

    Do we dare to compare our scars or our pain? Is it measuring contest? Do you have a ruler or should I find one? We can whip it out right here if that will make you feel better. On the count of three? One…Two…Hold up, this is just silly! Do we really have to do… Read more

  • On The Winds Of Nowhere

    May 11, 2020 by

    “He’s a real nowhere man, Sitting in his Nowhere Land, Making all his nowhere plans for nobody. Doesn’t have a point of view, Knows not where he’s going to, Isn’t he a bit like you and me?” ― The Beatles, Revolver, Vocal Score I have nothing to say. Maybe I should just post that one sentence… Read more

  • Forgiving The Unforgivable

    May 8, 2020 by

    To forgive may be divine but, for us mere mortals, is the divine even possible? Should all things be forgivable or is there a line that can’t be crossed? A line we can’t come back from? Are there things that are simply unforgivable? Do I really need to forgive to move on or can I… Read more

  • Nobody Panic But…

    May 4, 2020 by

    As a rule, what is out of sight disturbs men’s minds more seriously than what they see. ~Julius Caesar I have a very active imagination. Vivid imagery whips around my mind as if it’s caught in the winds of a hurricane. Short stories, memories, ideas, and my deepest fears collide. They shatter into a million… Read more

  • Take Your Time…We’ll Wait

    May 1, 2020 by

    So this is still a thing you’re doing? After all this time, it’s still bothering you? Really? I don’t mean to be rude, but don’t you think it’s time you just got over it? I mean, come on, it’s been…How long? Right, and you’re still moping around like a child that’s lost its teddy bear.… Read more

  • Take Courage In The Silence

    April 27, 2020 by

    “Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen.” – Winston Churchill The yelling is getting out of control. Voices on top of voices, screaming opinions that are barely discernible. The volume gets turned up a notch with every new chorister added to… Read more

  • A No Good, Terrible, Very Bad Day.

    April 24, 2020 by

    I used to live in blissful ignorance. Way back in the day, when my eyes were more innocent, I saw the good in the days ahead. Hope pranced through wildflowers. The sweet aroma of optimism filled the air. Endless possibilities danced on a gentle spring breeze. To be young and foolish. To slip on those… Read more

  • Raging Sh!t Storm

    April 20, 2020 by

    “It is okay to lose your sh!t sometimes because if you keep your sh!t, you’ll end up full of sh!t and then you’ll explode and there’ll be sh!t everywhere.  A sh!t storm. And nobody wants that.” – Unknown When was the last time you sat on the kitchen floor, curled up in the bathtub, or… Read more

  • The Downside Of Hope

    April 17, 2020 by

    There’s one word I’ve used quite a lot lately and that’s: Hopeless. A feeling that’s often considered a negative emotion that should be driven out by rainbows, unicorns, and reckless optimism. It’s seen as something that needs to be cured with haste lest it run wild. Left untreated it becomes a cancerous growth that destroys… Read more

  • What Are Friends For?

    April 13, 2020 by

    “When you’re in jail, a good friend will be trying to bail you out. A best friend will be in the cell next to you saying, ‘Damn, that was fun’.”  ― Groucho Marx It was a bad idea. A horrible idea. Nothing good was going to come from this idea. I knew it. I said… Read more

  • And A Good Friday To you Too!

    April 10, 2020 by

    This weekend means different things to different people. A religious holiday that celebrates death, resurrection, sacrifice, and salvation. A bunny that hops around, laying eggs in strange places, and a scavenger hunt. Copious amounts of chocolate, a dinner with the family, and a few days off work. Different strokes for different folks. Whatever tickles your… Read more

  • What Is Right Or What Is Easy?

    April 7, 2020 by

    “We must all face the choice between what is right and what is easy.” ― Albus Dumbledore, Harry Potter by J.K Rowling My dad used to say something similar, “The right things is rarely the easy thing to do but it’s the only thing we can do.” Since Dumbledore and my dad agree it must be… Read more

  • Thoughts From The In-Between

    April 3, 2020 by

    (Fair warning: This post will be all over the place because my mind is experiencing zero G’s and I don’t have much control over it.) I’ve sat down to write this post a half dozen times over the last three days but every word I type feels disingenuous. They aren’t wrong and the topics really… Read more

  • Yellow Polka Dotted Submarine

    March 31, 2020 by

    “It’s really a wonder that I haven’t dropped all my ideals, because they seem so absurd and impossible to carry out. Yet I keep them, because in spite of everything, I still believe that people are really good at heart.” ― Anne Frank, The Diary of a Young Girl Does anyone else feel like we woke… Read more

  • I’m Fine…Thanks For Asking

    March 27, 2020 by

    Someone asks me how I’m doing, and I say, “I’m fine.” It’s a normal response to a typical question. Nothing fancy or verbose. It’s not an epic soliloquy. We aren’t meticulously detailing every second of a day that’s been pretty basic. Not a great day but not a bad one either. It was just, you… Read more

  • The Indescribable Power of Gratitude

    March 23, 2020 by

    “We can complain because rose bushes have thorns, or rejoice because thorns have roses.”  ― Alphonse Karr, A Tour Round My Garden I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling overwhelmed right now. There’s one topic on everyone’s mind and on everyone’s lips. Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest…I didn’t know there were that many ways to decorate… Read more

  • The Power of Loneliness

    March 20, 2020 by

    I’m an introvert with moderate, sometimes severe, social anxiety. The idea of social isolation is as intriguing and alluring as a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. Stay away from people? Don’t go to social gatherings? Stay home, behind closed doors, and not see another human being for at least two weeks?… Read more

  • Winnie The Pooh! We Need You!

    March 16, 2020 by

    “You’re braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think.” – Winnie the Pooh Oh to be a three years old again! Sitting in a small theatre, watching a life-size Winnie the Pooh and Friends dance across a stage. It was the first musical theatre show I ever saw and I… Read more

  • Do I Still Believe In God?

    March 13, 2020 by

    Someone asked me this question: “After everything you’ve been through, do you still believe in God?” Whew, that’s a loaded topic. Kinda top heavy. I’m not sure how to answer you but I’ll try my best. Forgive me if I stutter and stumble. Deep breath. Here we go. I believe in a greater power, and… Read more

  • I’m Not Lost; Just Wandering

    March 9, 2020 by

    “All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost.” -J.R.R Tolkien, The Fellowship of The Ring I’m not lost! I’m standing right here, in the middle of a forest, looking up at the treetops and thinking silly thoughts. Thoughts like: What do you think the trees have seen in the… Read more

  • I Can’t Stop Should-ing All Over Myself

    March 6, 2020 by

    Let’s take a walk, shall we? Not through the forest, along a beach, or up a mountain. The trails we tread won’t be firm or formed by shifting tectonic plates. It won’t be lit by the sun or a street lap. It’s deep inside an ill-traversed cavern full of wonders and dangers. It goes deep… Read more

  • Listening To Better Angels

    March 3, 2020 by

    “The world is indeed full of peril, and in it there are many dark places; but still there is much that is fair, and though in all lands love is now mingled with grief, it sows perhaps the greater.” – J.R.R Tolkien (Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring) It’s hard for me… Read more

  • Do You Love Your Scars?

    February 28, 2020 by

    Do I love my scars? Yes, most of the time I do, but maybe love is a strong word. I’m not enamoured with these lines on my skin. When I look at them, I don’t feel an intense euphoria and an unconditional affection. My heart doesn’t skip a beat, and my stomach doesn’t twist itself… Read more

  • But Still I Smile

    February 24, 2020 by

    “The robbed that smiles, steals something from the thief.” – William Shakespeare, Othello I have this weird…twitch? Is that the right word? Habit? Quirk? Compulsion? Whatever it is, it’s peculiar, and it freaks some people out. The worse the situation; the more I smile. The sadder I am; the harder I laugh. Jokes, sarcasm, witticism… Read more

  • I Can’t Adult Right Now!

    February 22, 2020 by

    I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING! Where did that come from? Is my caps lock is stuck again? Weird. Thought I got that fixed. My bad. Sorry for yelling. It’s not my style but every once in a while it sorta just slips out. Kinda like…Nope let’s leave that one alone. So many way’s it… Read more

  • Chasing Normal

    February 17, 2020 by

    “If you’re always trying to be normal, you will never know how amazing you can be.”   Maya Angelou Sometimes I feel like a mannequin in the window of some low rent shopping centre. This anthropomorphized doll with incredibly realistic features. People stop and stare. They squint and turn their heads to the side. They… Read more

  • What Does It Feel Like?

    February 15, 2020 by

    Mental illness is hard to understand if you’ve never struggled with it. It’s even harder to explain when you’re in the middle of the darkness. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to find a way to explain what it feels like to fight a mental illness. Friends, family, have asked but I haven’t been… Read more

  • Only A Squirrel Can Save Us Now!

    February 10, 2020 by

    “Do your little bit of good where you are; it’s those little bits of good put together that overwhelm the world.” ― Desmond Tutu I wonder, if we stand on our heads will the world be the right way up? If we close our eyes, will we see more clearly? If we hold our breath, will our hearts do the talking? If we dare to dream, will our reality make more sense? If we let ourselves fall, will we find our feet? I’m in a bit of a mood. I’m frustrated with a lot of things right now. My life isn’t where I want it and I’m not sure how to get it there. Writing is hard, and I’m struggling to put these words down in an order that will make sense. All I want to do, at this moment, is quit trying and go watch Youtube for… Read more

  • How do You Say Goodbye?

    February 8, 2020 by

    What if there was a way to cure your disease? It’s a simple procedure. A minimally invasive surgery. There’s no financial burden and the risks are relatively low. Recovery time isn’t that long. You could be back to your normal routine in a couple of weeks. One procedure to cure an illness that’s been threatening… Read more

  • Things That Go Bump In The Night

    February 4, 2020 by

    “There’s no shame in fear, my father told me, what matters is how we face it.”  – George R.R. Martin, A Clash of Kings There’s a lot to be afraid of right now. World leaders are trying to start wars. An entire country is on fire. A virus is spreading faster than scientists can find… Read more

  • Is It A Stupid Question?

    January 31, 2020 by

    When we’re kids, we’re told that there’s no such thing as a stupid question. Asking questions is how we learn, grow, and connect with the people around us. We’re encouraged and rewarded for our inquisitiveness. I’ve even heard people say that it’s a sign of intelligence. The more curious we are, the further we go… Read more

  • The Rewired Brain

    January 28, 2020 by

    “Did you know? You can ‘REWIRE’ your brain to be happy by simply recalling 3 things you’re grateful for everyday for 21 days.” – Unknown I saw this quote floating around online, and it irked me. There’s nothing overtly wrong with it. It’s a nice sentiment. The words come from a desire to help people… Read more

  • Because We Dared To Sit

    January 24, 2020 by

    Ah, public transportation. Buses. Trains. The uncomfortable chairs coated in a sticky substance. That smell! I just don’t want to know what it is. There’s the suffocating press of bodies squeezed together. A quiet exchange of sweat that, in any other circumstance, would be disgusting. The long lines and a schedule that’s loosely based on… Read more

  • All You Gotta Do Is Ask

    January 20, 2020 by

    Asking for help isn’t a sign of weakness, it’s a sign of strength. – Barack Obama Asking for help sends me into a panic and brings on the cold sweats. I’ll do everything in my power to avoid it and, yes, often to my own detriment. Thinking about it triggers my gag reflex. My breath… Read more

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