Keri-lee Griffiths

Recovering Human Being

  • But Still I Smile

    February 24, 2020 by

    “The robbed that smiles, steals something from the thief.” – William Shakespeare, Othello I have this weird…twitch? Is that the right word? Habit? Quirk? Compulsion? Whatever it is, it’s peculiar, and it freaks some people out. The worse the situation; the more I smile. The sadder I am; the harder I laugh. Jokes, sarcasm, witticism… Read more

  • I Can't Adult Right Now!

    February 22, 2020 by

    I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING! Where did that come from? Is my caps lock is stuck again? Weird. Thought I got that fixed. My bad. Sorry for yelling. It’s not my style but every once in a while it sorta just slips out. Kinda like…Nope let’s leave that one alone. So many way’s it… Read more

  • Chasing Normal

    February 17, 2020 by

    “If you’re always trying to be normal, you will never know how amazing you can be.”   Maya Angelou Sometimes I feel like a mannequin in the window of some low rent shopping centre. This anthropomorphized doll with incredibly realistic features. People stop and stare. They squint and turn their heads to the side. They… Read more

  • What Does It Feel Like?

    February 15, 2020 by

    Mental illness is hard to understand if you’ve never struggled with it. It’s even harder to explain when you’re in the middle of the darkness. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to find a way to explain what it feels like to fight a mental illness. Friends, family, have asked but I haven’t been… Read more

  • Only A Squirrel Can Save Us Now!

    February 10, 2020 by

    “Do your little bit of good where you are; it’s those little bits of good put together that overwhelm the world.” ― Desmond Tutu I wonder, if we stand on our heads will the world be the right way up? If we close our eyes, will we see more clearly? If we hold our breath, will our hearts do the talking? If we dare to dream, will our reality make more sense? If we let ourselves fall, will we find our feet? I’m in a bit of a mood. I’m frustrated with a lot of things right now. My life isn’t where I want it and I’m not sure how to get it there. Writing is hard, and I’m struggling to put these words down in an order that will make sense. All I want to do, at this moment, is quit trying and go watch Youtube for… Read more

  • How do You Say Goodbye?

    February 8, 2020 by

    What if there was a way to cure your disease? It’s a simple procedure. A minimally invasive surgery. There’s no financial burden and the risks are relatively low. Recovery time isn’t that long. You could be back to your normal routine in a couple of weeks. One procedure to cure an illness that’s been threatening… Read more

  • Things That Go Bump In The Night

    February 4, 2020 by

    “There’s no shame in fear, my father told me, what matters is how we face it.”  – George R.R. Martin, A Clash of Kings There’s a lot to be afraid of right now. World leaders are trying to start wars. An entire country is on fire. A virus is spreading faster than scientists can find… Read more

  • Is It A Stupid Question?

    January 31, 2020 by

    When we’re kids, we’re told that there’s no such thing as a stupid question. Asking questions is how we learn, grow, and connect with the people around us. We’re encouraged and rewarded for our inquisitiveness. I’ve even heard people say that it’s a sign of intelligence. The more curious we are, the further we go… Read more

  • The Rewired Brain

    January 28, 2020 by

    “Did you know? You can ‘REWIRE’ your brain to be happy by simply recalling 3 things you’re grateful for everyday for 21 days.” – Unknown I saw this quote floating around online, and it irked me. There’s nothing overtly wrong with it. It’s a nice sentiment. The words come from a desire to help people… Read more

  • Because We Dared To Sit

    January 24, 2020 by

    Ah, public transportation. Buses. Trains. The uncomfortable chairs coated in a sticky substance. That smell! I just don’t want to know what it is. There’s the suffocating press of bodies squeezed together. A quiet exchange of sweat that, in any other circumstance, would be disgusting. The long lines and a schedule that’s loosely based on… Read more

  • All You Gotta Do Is Ask

    January 20, 2020 by

    Asking for help isn’t a sign of weakness, it’s a sign of strength. – Barack Obama Asking for help sends me into a panic and brings on the cold sweats. I’ll do everything in my power to avoid it and, yes, often to my own detriment. Thinking about it triggers my gag reflex. My breath… Read more

  • The Great and Powerful IT

    January 17, 2020 by

    I’m having one of those days and IT sucks. IT’s dragging me down hard and fast. I can’t stop IT and, yes, IT could be worse. IT has been worse. I usually handle IT so much better but today? IT’s kicking my ass. The great and powerful IT. Aloof and villainous. A thief, a cad,… Read more

  • My Best Friend and Worst Enemy

    January 13, 2020 by

    “You may find the worst enemy or best friend in yourself.” – English Proverb Do you like who you are? The way you look. The sound of your voice. The way you act in social situations or the way you handle stress. When you look at all the things that make you, you, are you… Read more

  • Say Hello To My Little Friend

    January 10, 2020 by

    A gremlin lives in my head. His name is Stewart. I know, it’s not a very scary name for a gremlin. I think it’ would prefer something like Scar, Zeus, or The Great and Powerful Norman. Something majestic or, you know, grr. Well Stewart, my old nemesis, you can suck it!  Let me backtrack a… Read more

  • Miss Sunshine

    January 6, 2020 by

    “We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.” – Buddha When I was a kid, I won a Miss Sunshine award for always having a smile on my face. No matter what happened I smiled and laughed. Surgeries, hospital… Read more

  • New Year New Me?

    January 3, 2020 by

    Happy New Year! A new year means one thing: We’ve written up our resolutions. Lose weight, spend less, save more, and a thousand other things. These lists are full of good intentions but, in the back of our minds, we know the list will be abandoned by February. It’s inevitable or maybe I’m the only… Read more

  • Merry…Whatever You Celebrate!

    December 27, 2019 by

    Merry Christmas! Happy whatever you celebrate! I wish you all the sweet things like sugar and spice. I hope you have a decorated tree and lots of mistletoe. Oh, and sparkling lights hung with care. Peace and goodwill to all and to all a good season.  I’ve been trying to write a post that fits… Read more

  • Just Plain Peculiar

    December 20, 2019 by

    I abhor social situations. Big or small. Family, close friends, or strangers. It’s all the same. I feel an overwhelming desire to run, hide, and call my mommy. If I can get out of going then I just won the lottery. If I can’t? Well, maybe it will be fun? Cringe. Here’s the thing: I’m… Read more

  • Act Your…What?

    December 13, 2019 by

    “You don’t act like a disabled person.” Um, not sure what you mean. “You need to start acting like a person with a disability.” Yeah, that didn’t clear anything up. Can you be more specific? “The way you are, the way you act, the way you live. That’s not how someone with your condition should… Read more

  • Thank-you

    December 12, 2019 by

    UPDATE: Last week I ran into some problems with my web host, and I had to shut everything down. That meant finding a new host, creating a new site, and uploading all of my blogs. It’s taken a lot of time but it’s done and I’m so happy! Thank you for your patience, understand, and… Read more

  • What Could Go Wrong

    December 11, 2019 by

    You had to ask! You had to say the words. Tempt fate? Why the hell not! Let’s put it out into the universe and see what happens. It’s not like the universe likes to sucker punch the foolish. Oh, wait, yes it does! It does it for the giggles. Oh, but okay, go on, give… Read more

  • Just Breathe

    December 10, 2019 by

    Meditation is good for our health? Really? Shocking. Okay, it’s not breaking news. It’s a practice that’s been around for centuries. It’s proven to help with things like: Chronic pain, chronic illness, and fatigue. It can help people dealing with depression and anxiety. It can help anyone who’s looking for an overall sense of well… Read more

  • Huggers! Am I Right?

    December 9, 2019 by

    They stalk their prey with wide eyes and bared teeth. Like sonar, pinging off a target, their voices rise to an octave that could break glass and shatter stone. They come closer. Circling. Cackling. Corralling their victim with glee and guile. The prey frantically searches for an escape. Their heart races. Beads of sweat roll… Read more

  • Can You Hear Me Now

    December 9, 2019 by

    I’m the type of person that gets lost in daydreams. I spend hours staring up at the sky. My happy place is curled up with a decent story or walking alone on a quiet trail. I’m a thoughtful, sensitive, introvert who’s comfortable with the silence. I also talking about geopolitics and the complexities of international… Read more

  • The Plague

    December 5, 2019 by

    It’s not hypochondria if you really do get sick all the time. Isn’t that what all hypochondriacs say? But it’s true! Argue with me all you like but I will not be swayed. My position is firm. My feet are grounded. I am not a hypochondriac!  Yeah, I run out of a room when someone… Read more

  • I Will Have Order

    December 5, 2019 by

    I like it when my day is planned out to the minute. That’s an understatement! I need it? Yep, that’s better. Underline, caps lock, highlight it because I can’t tell you how much I NEED order. I get up at the same time every day, and I don’t set an alarm. My eyes open with… Read more

  • Double Shot

    December 4, 2019 by

    I was three years old when I was diagnosed with chronic renal failure. There was a mistake, an ego trip, and it all led to my life being interesting? Is that the right word? It wasn’t…boring? Wow. Okay. No, not even close, but I do understand the confusion. All you hear about are the exploding… Read more

  • Can You See Me Now

    December 4, 2019 by

    Have you ever been invisible? Looked through. Talked over. Scream and shout but no one hears you. Seriously consider walking through that wall over there because you must be a ghost.  When my kidneys shut my body followed. My bones became brittle and every step created micro-fractures. My heart doubled in size. The fluid around… Read more

  • About Me

    December 2, 2019 by

    Hey there friends! My name is Keri-lee Griffiths and I’m a recovering human being.  I was diagnosed with a chronic, life-threatening, illness at three years old. I’ve had three kidney transplants. I’ve been clinically dead multiple times. I’ve had more surgeries than I can count but I’m still here. Somehow, for some reason, I’m still… Read more

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